Sunday, February 24, 2008


Well, Katie and Anna asked for another post, so this for you guys:)
Hmmm...what is new in my life? Well, "Dead Man Walking" is currently in production, so this is a fairly busy time for us costume shop workers. I worked the play tonight and last night. Basically we sit down in the dressing rooms during the shows and are prepared to fix and "wardrobe malfunctions." All I did tonight was cut some dangling threads. But hey, we get paid for it! Oh, and we clean the dressing rooms after everyone's gone. Fun times.

The show itself is really good...though I'm sure I exactly agree with it. It's about a man on death row. Very powerful stuff, and everyone involved did/is doing an excellent job. There was a responder tonight who watched the show and then critiqued it afterwards, which also went pretty well, I thought.

School is going pretty well. Not much to report there. Life is still insane, as usual. People are still insane, as usual;). Katie and Anna, if you want the specifics on that, give me a call:). Oh wait, I don't have my phone right now. E-mail! Or facebook message!

Ok, to everyone NOT Anna and Katie (well, you guys, too), have a marvelous day/week/whenever you read this and I be happy:). This post wasn't too in-depth, but it was nice and informative:). TTFN!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Mood Swings?

Wouldn't it be nice if there were locked-in moods? Kind of like interest rates? You know, if you could lock in a mood where you've just buried some major demons, come to terms with battles, set to rest worries, and are just happy with your life? Content with what God has given you? Joyful, in fact, in what God has blessed you with??

It would be nice if you could lock that in because I feel like just a week ago (exactly, I think) I felt just that way. And in just one night, I somehow let it all get turned around again. I'd been doing so well. I don't know what happened.

Well, things happened, I guess I just don't know why I'm letting them bother me now. What's different about tonight from last week? That's what I'm trying to figure I can fix it. Fix may not be the best term. The way I see it, all the blessings I had that brought contentment along with are still here. No matter how I choose to look at things, it doesn't change the fact that I am incredibly blessed. I have more than enough to be content. Which is why I'm kicking myself for being where I am now.

I think one thing is I'm looking for strength in the wrong place. Lately, anyway. I've been looking for it in people. That's one of the reasons, I think, that I've let my mood be swayed, is because I've been letting people get to me. Normally that isn't a problem for me. Externally, anyway. If someone is bothering me I don't usually do anything about it externally (which can be a problem in and of itself), and internalize it. The thing is, last week, I wasn't even internalizing it! I wasn't putting my hope in man...I was putting it on God, which is where it needs to stay.

However, God puts people in our lives to help with hardships, right? But that doesn't mean they should become a distraction in where my eyes and heart should be focused at all times. I just need to remind myself of that every once and a while;). If you see me in the near future, you can remind me, too:). "Why so downcast, oh my soul? Put your hope in God!" Basically, I have no reason to be downcast, even though I am. And I know I can't force myself out of it by telling myself I shouldn't be. I need to thank God for the amazing people he has placed in my life, and not give up on the ones that I'm struggling with. Not dwell on what might not be going the way I want it to (but pray about it), and concentrate on the countless things that I do have, yet don't deserve. Count my blessings! God really is good.

Now I have to go write some dialogue...fare thee well!